zum glück ist meine sonnenbrille verspiegelt, sodass niemand die tränen sieht. haha, ich bin so lächerlich.
i keep finding ways to push the good out
for the bad.
oh, how selfish of myself to always say that it was more than i could take,
like it was pain i could not shake, like it could break me
with its fingers,
throw my body in the lake and i would slowly sink
but the truth is, it was sorrow that i made and would not face.
see, i keep falling for the future after tripping on the past
and i am always
tearing sutures out to make the anguish last like it defines me,
me i've found comfort in my suffering and uncertainty in happiness and
because what's next is such a mystery to me;
i am terrified of all
the things i feel but can not see.